I was Set Free from Alcoholism, Depression, and Insomnia through GCN
| Manmin News No. 250 | 2011-09-04
Brother Jaesong Tak (Iksan Manmin Church)
I used to be alcoholic. I often said to myself 'I can't live like this' and made resolutions, but it was of no use.
In 1985, I stood as surety for my friend, which led me into great financial loss. He ended up betraying me and I even was divorced. There was no way out of the situation.
The only way to run away from it was drinking. My heart was filled with resentment and thirst for revenge and negative thoughts troubled me all the time. I even attempted suicide a few times. I was getting caught up in alcoholism, depression, and insomnia. I suffered from pain in chest caused by emotional disorder, and the pain of a herniated lumbar disc, and arthritis. I felt hopeless.
Of course, I tried to quit drinking. But I failed again and again due to withdrawal symptoms like hand tremors and twisted legs. I felt suffocated in the chest by depression and insomnia, so I sometimes went to the top of mountains and screamed out loud.
Finally, my parents and children began to avoid me. The number of customers decreased in my clothing repair business. There were only those who wanted to drink with me. But a light of hope shone on me.
In March of 2011, Pastor Changsook Kim of Iksan Manmin Church and Deaconess Deoksoon Lim who had led me to the church, visited me. I was moved by their love for a person like me, so I told them I would go to church again.
On the advice of Deaconess Lim, I had a GCN (Global Christian Network) satellite receiver installed at home. I enjoyed watching GCN. I liked all the programs including testimonies of those who have met God and the worship and praise. But the program through which I received grace the most was 'The Word of Life' where I could listen to Dr. Jaerock Lee's messages. I thought to myself, 'He is very honest and sincere' when I saw his tears for church members. Listening to his messages became my one and only joy.
On June 10, I was watching GCN just as usual. It was around 12 A.M. when Dr. Lee's Special Divine Healing Meeting was held in Manmin Central Church instead of Friday All-night Service. After delivering the message in the first half of the service, Dr. Lee led praise and prayer in the second half of the service. My heart was so touched when he was singing the hymn song 'Amazing Grace' with believers. It was such a touching moment, something that I had never experienced before.
When I knelt down, my past life came to my mind like a movie was being played. I had hard feelings toward my wife. I did not treat my mother the way she deserved. I drank and had falling outs with people. Looking back on my life, tears filled my eyes and kept flowing down on my face. My face was stained with tears and my nose was runny.
Then, Dr. Lee praised with the song 'Jesus.' I stood up and jumped shouting the name of Jesus before I knew it. I forgot that I had back pain and jumped praising the Lord. I went to bed feeling so surprised at what I had done.
On June 11, amazing works took place. I felt much better than before when I got up. I usually suffered from severe pain in the knees and back so I screamed when getting up or turning onto my side in bed. However, pain had disappeared overnight. There was no pain at all.
It was not all. I was set free from alcoholism that had troubled me for 17 years, depression, and insomnia. I was so happy that I felt like I could fly in the sky.
Above all, the most noticeable change in me is that I came to have hope for Heaven and think in positive ways. Now, I will talk about how I am doing these days and what kinds of blessing I have received.
My friends who like drinking visited me, but they just left seeing the change in me. I came to like hymn songs more than the worldly songs. I sing the song 'Jesus', even when I am alone. I enjoy offering services to God and His word is sweet like a honey comb. My business has been booming, so I have received abundant financial blessings, too. I do not blame troubles on others, but on myself. Hallelujah!
I give all thanks and glory to the Lord who healed a wounded spirit like me who was destined to die and healed all my diseases.
GCN (Global Christian Network) has delivered the holiness gospel to all nations through various media such as public broadcasting, satellite, cable, and Internet broadcasting. It has a variety of programs containing Dr. Lee's messages, signs, wonders, power, and high quality Christian culture.
I used to be alcoholic. I often said to myself 'I can't live like this' and made resolutions, but it was of no use.
In 1985, I stood as surety for my friend, which led me into great financial loss. He ended up betraying me and I even was divorced. There was no way out of the situation.
The only way to run away from it was drinking. My heart was filled with resentment and thirst for revenge and negative thoughts troubled me all the time. I even attempted suicide a few times. I was getting caught up in alcoholism, depression, and insomnia. I suffered from pain in chest caused by emotional disorder, and the pain of a herniated lumbar disc, and arthritis. I felt hopeless.
Of course, I tried to quit drinking. But I failed again and again due to withdrawal symptoms like hand tremors and twisted legs. I felt suffocated in the chest by depression and insomnia, so I sometimes went to the top of mountains and screamed out loud.
Finally, my parents and children began to avoid me. The number of customers decreased in my clothing repair business. There were only those who wanted to drink with me. But a light of hope shone on me.
In March of 2011, Pastor Changsook Kim of Iksan Manmin Church and Deaconess Deoksoon Lim who had led me to the church, visited me. I was moved by their love for a person like me, so I told them I would go to church again.
On the advice of Deaconess Lim, I had a GCN (Global Christian Network) satellite receiver installed at home. I enjoyed watching GCN. I liked all the programs including testimonies of those who have met God and the worship and praise. But the program through which I received grace the most was 'The Word of Life' where I could listen to Dr. Jaerock Lee's messages. I thought to myself, 'He is very honest and sincere' when I saw his tears for church members. Listening to his messages became my one and only joy.
On June 10, I was watching GCN just as usual. It was around 12 A.M. when Dr. Lee's Special Divine Healing Meeting was held in Manmin Central Church instead of Friday All-night Service. After delivering the message in the first half of the service, Dr. Lee led praise and prayer in the second half of the service. My heart was so touched when he was singing the hymn song 'Amazing Grace' with believers. It was such a touching moment, something that I had never experienced before.
When I knelt down, my past life came to my mind like a movie was being played. I had hard feelings toward my wife. I did not treat my mother the way she deserved. I drank and had falling outs with people. Looking back on my life, tears filled my eyes and kept flowing down on my face. My face was stained with tears and my nose was runny.
Then, Dr. Lee praised with the song 'Jesus.' I stood up and jumped shouting the name of Jesus before I knew it. I forgot that I had back pain and jumped praising the Lord. I went to bed feeling so surprised at what I had done.
On June 11, amazing works took place. I felt much better than before when I got up. I usually suffered from severe pain in the knees and back so I screamed when getting up or turning onto my side in bed. However, pain had disappeared overnight. There was no pain at all.
It was not all. I was set free from alcoholism that had troubled me for 17 years, depression, and insomnia. I was so happy that I felt like I could fly in the sky.
Above all, the most noticeable change in me is that I came to have hope for Heaven and think in positive ways. Now, I will talk about how I am doing these days and what kinds of blessing I have received.
My friends who like drinking visited me, but they just left seeing the change in me. I came to like hymn songs more than the worldly songs. I sing the song 'Jesus', even when I am alone. I enjoy offering services to God and His word is sweet like a honey comb. My business has been booming, so I have received abundant financial blessings, too. I do not blame troubles on others, but on myself. Hallelujah!
I give all thanks and glory to the Lord who healed a wounded spirit like me who was destined to die and healed all my diseases.
GCN (Global Christian Network) has delivered the holiness gospel to all nations through various media such as public broadcasting, satellite, cable, and Internet broadcasting. It has a variety of programs containing Dr. Lee's messages, signs, wonders, power, and high quality Christian culture.